It has been awhile since I last blogged and I missed it very much! I missed it so much that there wasn't a day when I'd think, "Oooh, I'll blog about that today!" or, "Oooh, I'll add that to this topic" lol.. But today is May 09th, a month since my sister's death and I am encouraged to write to you all....
April 09, 2009: It was around 4am when I heard my mom screaming, "Annieee! Annieee!" My first thought was that they were fighting but my mom's screaming cry was different. I got up instantly and ran to my mom's room. I see my mom holding my sister while her body was hunched over. Her eyes and mouth were shut and her body was warm. I tried to find her pulse but there was barely anything there...As I called 911, my body was shivering and I couldn't speak right. I stayed in the hallway and prayed, "Lord, what's going on? I don't know what to do..."...As surprising as it may be, I sat there and praised God for everything that was happening at that moment...About 1hr later was when my family and I were in the waiting room and15mins later they pronounced my sister Annielyn dead.
April 10-16th: Sorrow, pain, confusion, stress, heartache, emotional instability, discontentment......God's love, comfort, hope, faith, happiness, trust...
Today, May 09th: I thought I would write so much more but I'm in a loss of words and I didn't want to get too in detail with everything.
I was on a very bumpy ride - a time in my life that as really shook me out of my comfort zone. I know that this is the first of many that will occur but God will always remain the same..
Thank you to all of you who have shown your love and support to my family and I by the visits, phone calls, texts, prayers, hugs, your presence during the viewings, funerals and so on. My love goes out to you...
Just to end this, I want to share with you my praise for the month.. Although things got chaotic in my life, I'm slowly finding my stability in my life. My first step was this: TO LET GO, LET GOD.
In Christ,
Elyssa
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